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Valentine's Day

Valentine's Day Today is Valentine's Day and it is so different then last year. Last year I had someone that I felt was special in my life and about 9 months or so we parted ways. Today as I reflect on my life and I find so much peace within myself as I have come to have a lot of closer in my life. Yes, I'm alone on this Day that people are sent flowers from their love ones or taken to dinner but I'm OK and know that I have over come so much in my life. For I have a Valentine in my life and that is me. I have grown so much in the past few months and I have to admit that I look at myself with different eyes and I have found so much love from within. Just before Christmas my past lover and I started to talk again to see if we could begin again or try to work things out. I can only speak for myself but I really tried to forgive, and I tried to talk things out. But in the end he was not ready to let me back into his life and so I this week I had closer. When you need closer you need to go the source and really try hard to understand and ask questions and at times take a hard look at why you need this. I needed to give him a chance or lets say us a chance even though I was hurt when he walked away. But I can honestly say that I really tried hard to make things work. Nothing, I did changed what we use to call us but I changed and I had closer. Closer is so important to moving on so when that someone special in the future walks into your life your open to loving again. Some might say I might have been stupid for trying again but I learned so many lessons from wearing my heart on my sleeve and giving it one more chance to work it self out. Now, I know that for now that him and I will not be each others Valentine this year. He has changed so much and so have I and we are like water and oil right now and that is not a good thing. I could not live the life that he has enter into because I have really learned to love myself from a gentle and kind place. In the long run I learned about myself and I have worked hard at understanding my needs and what will make me happy. I have wished him the best that life has to offer and I had closer. When I see him in public I will say hello and might give him a hug but now I know who he is and what has become and I wish him he luck in his new found life. Now I walk in peace, love, joy, happiness and the light for I was true to myself and never gave up on me. I would rather love and be hurt then never to have loved at all. Someday I will have passion for another but for now I have a long over due closer and I'm very happy. So I ask myself this question today will you myself be my Valentine and the answer with a smile is, Yes. I'm finding joy in the little things in life and have learned to be quiet and just feel the wind in my hair and be at peace with the world and myself. This was the best Valentine wish that anyone could ever hope for. So happy Valentine's Day all my dear friends and walk with love and peace in your hearts. Thank you Bakespace.com and I'm still losing weight.