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Birthday Reflections of the past year

The gift that life brings to oneself is an amazing process as we learn about ourselves. Reflecting back over the year from May 2, 2006 to May 2, 2007 so much of my life has change. The past year completely shook the foundation of my universe and I was forced to look at myself and really open my eyes and my heart and see me for the first time. I have learned to transform hurt and pain into healing and now I travel on this life journey with hope and love. The past year my emotional base was rocked to the core and I found it essential to move through the pain and let go of who I thought I was. I became a different person on many levels. Some of the lessons that I learned was not take out anger towards another and nothing will stay the same as each day changes. How extraordinary life can be even when one is pushed into letting go of love ones. I think the turning point of this year when I decided to really look at what I give out to others and to take responsibility for my actions in life. I have been working on bring out my true colors and they are colors of love, peace and harmony. I never thought that I would be alone at this age or to not to have someone that I love hold me on the eve of my birthday. On Tuesday night the day before my birthday I shared with friends and my daughter at the LA Social and it was wonderful seeing every one. On my birthday I stay in and was quiet and was at peace. I went off my diet and eat what ever I wish and read and worked on an art project and was at peace. I did not feel sad or at a lost I felt very centered and full of love with in me. I inspire to have success in my life and have felt closer to my soul knowing that the pain of the past year was a great teacher. It forced me to go inside and see who I was. I am a different person that has learned what my strengths are and I can’t run away from myself. I have face challenges with courage, clarity and fortitude this past year. I struggle with issues of abandonment and victim hood. In end I learned that I no longer had to be a victim to life but that I can inspire to be as I wish and that is strong living woman with so much love to give. I feel as if I have a rebirth on many levels because I stop blaming others and took good look at what I put out on many levels. I have found my spiritual path once again and consciously came back to myself. This journey inside can only start when you free yourself of anger and connect with the creative part of who you are. So moving through the pain into personal transformation and rebirth has been the catalyst for creating a greater place of strength, wisdom and love. Forgiveness and letting go and surrendering to knowing that I’m not able to control others and I can only control myself . Most what I have learned is the willingness to receive love from others. Pain got my attention this year past year and had placed me on new road of wellness and now I see my authentic and transparent self. I have found happiness within me and peace, love and joy. What a wonderful birthday present to myself and it’s a gift that enhance my life.